The Contradiction of One

One's contradictory lifestyle will always cause problems. One's hatred of the inability to control things will always debilitate the individual. Over and over again, one my attempt to walk away from one aspect of one's core beliefs only to violently return to that aspect, kicking and screaming along the way. One may need to walk to different paths to feel whole, but how can that occur? This Piscean way is contradiction, constantly swimming in two different ways. Always open to feeling even when cut off is the better path if one wants to stay sociologically protected. What is One's? How does One walk away from great opportunity when the desire remains. Solidify the path with blood and sweat. Bodies block the way. Forgotten the way, to live. Death beckons gently, yet One cannot hear his voice. Losing the will to search out help, One prepares for battle on last time. It's in one's nature to die, but the impact of departure in miniscule. None shall mourn. A good life, this was not. One will live with this weight and contradiction. Nothing left. Release all thought and parish, O' Sleeping Dreamer. Create a world where One no longer feels, desires, longs, exists.