Bored

Don’t you know what it takes

To give a fucking shit these days

Wasting all my damn time

Thinking up a multitude of ways

Can’t see to flee

The apathy inside me

I only ever wanted to

I only ever needed you

You thought I gave a damn

That’s just something I couldn’t muster

Looking at you now flaunting a new mister

You’re looking pathetic these days

Desperation shining through

Special kinda of sanity

Leading me to a new form of sobriety

Thought you could be someone

I’m the one saying that i’m done

Tired of all the shit

Tired of feeling like at tit

All swollen and ready for use

Unapologetically built for abuse

You stabbed me in my chest

Even after I did my best

You really are just like all the rest

Self-absorbed looking to score

In the end you're just a bore

I gave it all away

Sanity, honour, light

Fuck it all I’m ready to fight.

I’ve been around the world on the seas

I’m glad I dodged the bullet of your disease

I’ve rarely found a place to ease my mind

You take another toke and remind

I’ve already dealt with the morphine addict

I’ve already dealt with the meth head

No one can calm thoughts outside of the bed

When all is said and done

I will rise up and shed this weight, a ton

You thought you could destroy me

You thought that you could bleed me dry

I will be laughing as you cry

Take one last look in the mirror

You haven’t understood that’s my horror

Seeing the man looking back at me

In pain so visceral endlessly

You’ve never understood the path

You’ve never seen the aftermath

The rope tied perfectly

Meant to end this completely

It never did

The blade pierced the flesh

Blooding running a fresh

The scar I feel inside

No longer able to hide

You have no idea how hard it is to care

You say so much shit but are never there

No wonder you don’t see the truth inside

That you are wretched to the core

You truly have become a bore