Confessions of a Sort (Original Date: June 2011)

These things I write, confessions of a sort, all tend to be a bit dark and emotional. This is quite possibly due to the fact that when the internal daemons wish flare my only acceptable pathway is to write it down. I can't seem to erase the pain, the anger, or betrayal in these writings. I wish I could say I don't hold back when I write, but due to the locations and circumstances in which each is written the amount of myself left on the page varies. I have oft wished I were different and didn't think or feel the way I do and have in my past. Oft have I wished roles were reversed so others could show the world the what Light is instead of people having to try to see through my darkness. Survivor's guilt, that is what I've been told I deal with. I would have to agree but it doesn't make it any easier to deal. As each day passes, I've learned to accept that I was unable to control the outcomes of people's lives. ... All I will say for now.