Emotions (Original Date: May 2008)

Been so long since I allowed

Myself to feel all these emotions

Inside I feel like I'm to cry

If it keeps going I know I'll die

But it's been too long since

I opened up my heart

It's tearing me apart

Up until about two weeks ago

Few ever escaped me

Now I'm being beaten

Into the ground as my eyes bleed

Puking up my heart now

Is this a disease

Oh My God Please

Let Me live this out

Let me jump and shout

Let me take on all the sins

Let my emotions never thin

On my shoulder will they ride

No longer will they hide

Deep inside the core

Of my being

No More no more

I'm tired of pushing aside

And running to hide

I'm tired of hiding my love

When it makes me come undone

I will not be the one

To break every time I feel

I will not be the one

To cower any more

I want to seal the deal

I want her by my side forever

I want for her and I to be together

Oh, god help me

Not lose myself in my emotions

But to control their motions

And not take me under