End of a Way of Life (Original Date: March 2010)

Tears falling hard now Cannot understand why of all The walls inside have broken The dam has been cracked The emotional flood has come Why Now after all Tearing apart my soul Rearranging the things in life For better or worse huh Worse won first war Afraid to see what happens now Am I just afraid of failing Or am I afraid of losing it all The mind shuts tight as my heart Opens up further than ever before What the hell is left in me Pandora's box has been unleashed What's left before the pent rage? Taking another slice at the pain Rain trickling down my skin feels nothing Waiting until the hole decays Will only prolong the inevitable A hole is building and I'm sinking Truthfully only one path left Forgotten mindsets resurfacing How hard is it to live When you have nothing to die for? An argument away from a downed bottle And me going to bed at full throttle Another painful moment passes I've become an aspect I hate again needing to relieve stress in writing Needing to quiet my mind now Before I tear away in disarray Everything I've known everything I am Tasting that salt so sweet This face hidden behind a mask Scarred beyond recognition Eyes intent to fight what comes next Can't you taste it on your lips The sullen dangerousness of it all But you swear to enjoy that kind of thing Wait for the day it all ends So many will be happy I don't know how I will feel anymore Tattered and torn broken and bruised Unleash the internal turmoil outward somehow The black heart no longer scarring The king of hearts now too far gone to care