Harsh Reality

You are the poison in me

The sight of you fills me with anxiety

The years of therapy undone

Just because you’ve your way

Don’t put this on me

You are worthy

But this isn’t my fight

Please get out of my sight

You are the poison in me

Something craved but never mutual honesty

You ripped the heart out of me

You are the poison in me

You say that you’re broken

You say that you’ve lost all hope

You don’t know what you’ve done to me

You are the poison in me

The hatred I’ve held the

The sadness I’ve known

I know what I am

I know what must be done

Flee this world

Look to the sky

I am the poison in you

Hate this face hate myself

Don’t look back

Bleeding still

Carved the scar into the surface

No longer just beneath the surface

I am the poison in you

Look what I’ve done

I’ve come undone

Broken in ways I never let you see

Wasted ambition

Wasted life

I know who I was

I know what I am

The daemons live

Inside my head

Inside my heart

I am the poison in you

Bleed this blood

Seek no more

May healing come

May forgiveness begin

I am the poison in you

Break me open

See the truth

I know it’s hard to find my center

I am stuck in a 30 year winter

Push me away

I deserve to decay

All the pain and anger

I am still a danger

I am the poison in me

I am the poison in me