Losing It (Original Date: June 2011)

You know how I feel Over and over we play The same old games I just love the way You don't tell me What I can already see In you I already feel That this dream isn't real But still you say It can be our way I can't keep going I can't be not knowing I need to feel That this is real How do you feel How do you love Another week's gone by Another time you hide Do you really believe There's nothing inside The way I turn you on The way I give you me Is it a lot for you on The different ways I can be I want you to tell me The one you want is me I can't keep going I can't be not knowing I need to feel That this is real How do you feel How do you love Vunerable feeling so damn open Waiting for the knifes to enter To tear me down again Another time I cannot filter Offering my fragile heart up Another bit of misery That I can't get back up A lot of this history And it's shaking me up again If it's fake what to do then I can't keep going I can't be not knowing I need to feel That this is real How do you feel How do you love Feeling the tension thicken I can't seem to cut my ties The thread around my heart binds Me to these fucking lies Another chapter closed tight Can I really move through Is what I'm doing really right All I wanted to do was live for you Yet again I sit and wonder why I let you in just to allow me to cry I can't keep going I can't be not knowing I need to feel That this is real How do you feel How do you love I can't keep going I can't be not knowing I need to feel That this is real How do you feel How do you love Gave it all up Now there's an empty cup What more must I say Than I hate the way I'm condemned to feel When to you none of this is real The last lips I kiss I wouldn't want to miss But every day It washes away How must I feel today As my heart start to decay