(Original Date: June 2010

My life has been one stressor after another. I really should be good at handling the stress by now. One day all will be good, but when will that day come? Today I see the sun set on a period of my life. A chapter so close to closing and with that I have delved into a new form of stress. Constantly away from the comfort of home and almost able to claim residency or citizenship in other lands. A superior that does nothing but try to make you feel small while others try their best to guard you from it. Financial freedom closing in but when will this madness ever end. A time too soon or a time too late, either way I will meet my fate. Another heartache but no more tears left in me, they all went away with her. Ever since her passing, tears have been hard to come by. The thought of losing the things that matter most bring fear but not a tear. Hollowed out I'd become with no sign of it being undone. Another trip down memory lane has all but driven me insane. A dream once forsaken now understood mistaken. One day it will all change but until that day, the stress will compound me. The things I take makes me stronger. The crap I take makes me colder.