The Mistake

It wasn’t that you thought you knew me

It wasn’t that I tried to let you see

It wasn’t that I knew the you you hide

It wasn’t that I was buried deep inside

It wasn’t that you weren’t true

The first mistake made was ever trusting you

It wasn’t your tits or ass that captivated me

It was your pretty eyes, you see

I could have cared more about the rest

But honestly in no category were you in the best

You thought your routine would win me over

In the past maybe then I would lower

You think you own me (you never could)

You think I’m crazy (you haven’t seen shit)

You think you know me (you know only what I want you to)

The second mistake came when it usually would

When you came round looking for wood

You never seemed to understand words

When you thought you’d bound me, I cut cords

When you’re looking back, years from now

When you become the thing you hate, a sow

You will know that what I offered you

Was well above what you were ever due

You have no idea what life could have been

If you had the bloody courage then

You think you own me (you never could)

You think I’m crazy (you haven’t seen shit)

You think you know me (you know only what I want you to)

Your final mistake was leaving me alive

When you thought you could connive

Attempts on my life epically failed

To a cross I will see you nailed

You thought you could end me

You should have dug two graves

I never had a doubt that I could be

The one that survived the closest shaves

You think you own me (you never could)

You think I’m crazy (you haven’t seen shit)

You think you know me (you know only what I want you to)

Death will take me when he gives a shit

This disease in you you could never quit

You thought you could make me damn toy

Bitch, you haven’t learned, yet? I’m not your boy

I’ve been through hell, I’ve been in the shit

I’m not some virgin fresh from his mommy’s tit

You’ve never seen the hatred for my kind

You’ve never had to stop and rewind

Searching for the truth of why people die

You’ve never had to face the mirror and lie

You think you own me (you never could)

You think I’m crazy (you haven’t seen shit)

You think you know me (you know only what I want you to)

I’ve seen the hell I’ve created

I’ve never been so baited

You don’t understand the life I’ve led

You should have ensured that I bled

You grabbed for other’s things believing they were yours

Even after every drink the bartender pours

I can’t help but think you’re a narcissist

Who thinks she’s hot and no one can resist?

Your self-hatred could never amass to this

You’ve turned your entire life to piss

I know the you you hid for years

All those hopes and all of those fears

The manipulative bitch, trying to scratch an itch

Soul continues to crush as you push past

It all relative to the bloody die you cast

You should have made sure I was dead

It is so bloody easy to look for red

You think you own me. I would never allow that

You think I’m crazy. That’s fine. I’ll wear that hat

You think you know me. You only know what I want you to

So, in the end my mistake was ever caring about you