The Sickness You Hide (Original Date: December 2009)

So many days passed by

Too often made to want to cry

And every time I look into the past

I keep seeing the clues that harassed

So many times I tried

So many times I died

I did this shit for you

So maybe we could see it through

I was blinded by my self illusion

Fuck the way I wanted to be

Forget the honesty

Betrayal and manipulation, your only friends

Come round circle until it ends

I used to be something better

I used to be innocent

I forget why I continued to hold on to the tether

I looked past how hell bent

Upon the revenge you'd get

I used to turn blind eyes

To every single one of those guys

But you continued on and on

Five long years of union

And now I sit in communion

Wishing I knew my motives better

And now I'm lost inside forever

Too many battles faced

Too often my mind erased

So I could not see the pain

Yet I still wanna cry when in rain

The Sickness you hide so well

Is so hard for you to sell

I just wish they weren't so fooled

And living in a world now ruled

By the biggest slut of them all

Now I am undone before the wrath of all

Sleepless nights no more

Forget the pain inside full circle

The sickness you tried to instill in me

No longer flowing through my veins