What's Left? (Original Date: October 2011)

If I could forgive myself

Would my tears stop falling

If I could change the past

Would it even matter

Am I resigned to this

Is there still more for me

Do I still have potential

That I could never live up to

In my heart I know

That in the end I'll go

And mess it all up again Is there more for me

Is there more I should see

Stripped from me the flesh I love

What's to become of her

When she notices the truth

Will she say I abandoned her

Will the truth even matter

One more day so much more pain

Too much on my soul

Weighing me down to this hell I know

All that I've ever known collapsing now

Who the hell am I anymore

Am I still that child too scared to get hurt

Am I the smart ass you hate

What is left of me anymore

All the scars on my flesh

Don't amass to those on my heart

What is left of me

Why would anyone want this

The ever after I've prayed for stripped again

Who the hell is that man in the mirror

I don't who I am anymore

The love I have still too deep

Still forcing me to drown again

And the pain goes on

As I watch them hurt

hands still tied and I can't do anything

Another forced smile

As I feel so vile

What the hell is left inside

When can this light I finally hide

The daughter I have but never see

The world I've always wanted stripped from me

Another love, another failure

Does the cycle ever really end

Split in two and it doesn't even matter

What is left for me

If I could forgive myself

What would it change

If I could change the past

Would I be the one in the ground

Survivor's guilt wrapped around my core

I'm sorry I'm such a boreI

don't know who I am anymore.