Words I Choke Down (So No One Knows) (Original Date: July 2009)

How many times must I try To hide the fact that I cry Deep down inside I break Every little bit of me I've forsake Take ahold of my fears Drown me in these tears Hold my breath until I choke It happened; me broke Seismic anomaly Tearing me in two Is it really hard to say what I've been through Torturing myself for all my regrets No one forgives and no one forgets So why do I try anyway When all I do is get in the way? Tell me that you hate me If that is what you feel to me Tell me the truth and don't hold back Tell me if i can't hack Is this really a me, I can afford to be? Is this really something that she should see? The bruise now on my arm Self-inflicted is the only way to feel the harm I'm not good enough to be So why chose me?